Stations and airports are really bad things for me, even travelling now seems really bad, and frankly i dont love travelling anymore. any new place freaks me out. Last one year it happened every time, leaving kolkata for padova, leaving padova for some short trip somewhere, everytime i set my step outside my room, i feel a deep urge to comeback to my bed and sleep for long time. the concept of home is really screwed up in my mind now. dont know whether i will be happy to go back to kolkata or to chennai or to any other place. I had many incidents in train stations. specially when i was in chennai. But when someone lacks the notion of home, all this journeys become very difficult. the natural question which always come in mind is wheteher there is an end of this mess . I go back home i am guest there, i go to any other place i am guest there. there is only going no coming back, and its not always easy to comeback. i felt like flying back to india when i went to airport with pranav. it was a little bit uncomfortable feeling , but when i was going back to padova i didn't find any reason to go back to india , it's just someone else is happy becuase he has a strong idea of home made me sick and jealous. this kind of rootlessness is the source of biggest depression , and to avoid it eat lots of chocolate is the only advise i can give to myself.