Freedom flies

Freedom flies, like the most irritating insect , everyone wants to kill it , so it is rare, but still it flies. I have seen these flies all my life, it is not irritating for me, and once it bites there are lots of bad effects too. As I become dumb day by day these fly comes back again, but this time to discuss freedom with me. In these years everything has changed , a deep sarcasm more or less dominates my social behaviour, so I become more irritating and stubborn for most of the people. My apathy for all the real things made me unrealistic and most of the time others find difficult to understand my point of view and and the reason of my perpetual happiness. Well I am not free, that is the moral of todays conversation with the fly. Freedom is unattainable unless the real and the inner world becomes same. But it is not possible for me, I feel my outer real world shrinking very rapidly and the inner world becoming totally disconnected with the reality.
Anyway I thought about few free people I know very closely and thought about the person who can really claim to be the most free person. Poets, freedom fighters, intellectuals, monks, ganja seller, pimps, drug addict , jokers and myself , I considered every thing that made my past and made my present so inescapably disconnected with the reality. And after a long consideration it was Lokkhi pishi . She works in our home. In our overly heated economy this kind of people suffers the most . But not she. She is the most clever human being I have ever seen. And most importantly the person who can accept change more than anyone I know. Illetaracy never stopped her to buy small land with proper planning with the small wages she got from the every day washing cleaning job of her. This job , I consider more disgraceful for the emplooyer than the employee. We Indians are strict believers of slavery. Whenever we get some money we want to get pleasure by not doing some trivial daily work and appointing someone for minimal charges. The feeling of having a slave (chakor or naukar) is one of the ultimate fantasy of Indians, and I observed that women love slaves more than men. I dont know the reason yet. Anyway Lokkhi pishi (Laxmi) has done justice to her name. She is the person always looking for something new to add to her life, for her family for her child. Her son goes to English medium school, she buys small land as future investment, she wants to buy old computer for her child .