Someone has to pay for all these blood. The question is who ?

It is th start of an angry day. Again , India is the target. The common man of India. Do you have any right to live ? Do you have any right to talk about yourself ? Do you have any right to be happy ? Pakistan is a flase state, it never knew what they want to become. Neither their common men have any idea of what to do, and they are facing complete destruction as if now. What they should have done to save their fat arse is to co-operate with India and have a peaceful economically boundaryless sub continet like the continental europe. But dumb people are hard to be taught, even nature can't teach them any lesson. They will continue to spread unrest in these whole sub-continet. Dont forget about the tiny little country called bangladesh, which is really unimportant otherwise, but then the generous leaders of the CPM (Chor party marxist) doesnt think that the illegal immigrants from bangaldesh borders shoudl be controlled. Life is so cheap , so cheap.

Few things about Binoy

Last night I met a person called Binoy. No it was not a conincidence I guess. Since , for a long time I was expecting someone to come and change the way I think, the way I bluff, the way I love. He came, and yes its he, and changed everything last night. Once in a while people like Binoy comes and changes my position as an observer. He told me to write good thinsg in a bad way, as if there are too mnay good things in this world and we take them as garnetd , so we dont give importance to any of it. He will be with me for some time, as he has told, and leave me exactly whne our conversation will become boring. After the first conversation with Binoy, I came to know one of his favourite bad poems. He hismslef said that whenever someone asks him for introduction he recites this verse. For the sake of lcarity he prefers bengali than any other language, at least he said so. So here it goes the introduction of Binoy :

amar naam binoy,
kolkatay brihsti hole thik jekhane shobchay beshi jol joma hoy
shekhane amar bari,
amar bolle thik hobe na, boroncho ekebare bhul bodh hoy,
ami to image-er karbari,
tai amar bole khub beshi ekta kichu nai,
olpo ai sholpo shai
diye protidiner nikti mepe jibonjapon
emon
kono shorto rakhe ni keu.
naamtao nijer noy,
jemon noy
baba maa-er ekdiner probol sharirik bhalobashay pawa ai shorir.
amake bhalobashle prochur chhobi debo,
alto kore buliye nebo
haat tomar gopon onge.
amake bhalobashle tomaro kono kichu nijer thakbe na.
parbe na
emon bhabe bhalobashte.
naki bhoy hoy ?
amar naam binoy.

My name is Binoy.
The place which gets filled with most fo the water whenever it rains in kolkata,
there is my home.
if i say its mine then it wont be true, maybe it is completely false.
i am a trader of images.
So there are not many things which are mine,
noone forced me to live
by making everyday routine of some of this and some of that.
even my name is not mine.
like the way this body,
which i got because of my parents once upon a time made tremendous physical love,
is not mine.
if you love me i will give you lost of pictures,
i will lightly varess your private parts.
if you love me there will be nothing caleed yours .
you cant love me .
or may be you are scared ?
my name is binoy.

Few things that I know about the first few days in a foreign country and that I want to know

Foreign , sound like an alien place to be. And when you have just moved from your own hometown to someplace which is not your hometown , few things changes, as people say. This changes combined with the perception of mind creates a different biological and psychological sphere around us. Good or bad, it takes little or a long time to get used to this sphere. What are the changes we first notice ? Even the changes we first notice depends on our previous experience and current status of mind, which is also an amalgamation of previous biological and psychological experience. But I have to start somewhere. So suppose , I am going outside my home for the first time, alone, such that the previous definition of "we" that I have had has no representative there, nor there are most of the things similar to the thing called "my place", and I am experienced enough to have the prejudices called beauty, tasty , talented, superior blah blah... More precisely, suppose I have enough prejudices (known as common sense or knowledge or feelings or intellect ) to give every thing a order in my mind and my behaviour is dependent on that ordering.
People look different . And in our time skin color , by the help of western propaganda, is a very strong thing to define beauty. So we notice the skin color first. I strongly remember those days , when i used to notice whether a person is fat or slim first. Then we try to give the people of the foreign land a place in our ordering according to our definition of beauty. Sense of beauty is a strong prejudice and it can really affect anyones behaviour. An accepted physically beautiful person holds a good social and economic position irrespective of his/her other qualities. So the first sense we can feel comes from our eyes. And that somehow defines our behaviour towards the foreigners. This sense of beauty is not only dependent on physical beauty , it has strong coupling with economics, academic aspects of the individual or a population. The mistake that all of us make is to try to conclude about some property of the population using the perception of invidual knowledge. Also the other way around can be really dangerous. In first few days, normally we make our perceptions about the population very clear and strong and then we start making assertions about the individuals. And those assertions not only dominates our behaviour towards everyone , it also makes a path for more psychological perversion and corruption.
The best way to live anywhere in this world is to be free from your mind while observing something, as logically either every place is a foreign place for us or every place is our home (same way either everything is beautiful or nothing is). A bad perception is worse than no perception. Mind has to be free so do we have to b e free from our mind. Whne there is an observation, there are no observer, nothing observed, just an observation.

IIT's , prejudices and propagandas funded by common mans money

First cut :
Place : Kharagpur, Hijli detention camp, 1956.
India dreaming to become big and strong.
Jawaharlal Nehru addressed the first outgoing batch :
"Here in the place of that Hijli Detention Camp stands the fine monument of India, representing India's urges, India's future in the making. This picture seems to me symbolical of the changes that are coming to India."

Second cut :
Place : all the iit's, iim's, aiims, isi, jadavpur university and shibpur university, april 2006
Arjun Singh takes another step towards positive discrimination or what is known as affirmative action. The first step being the reservation of those who faced negative discrimination through out ages. This is supposed to be the part of the basic point of democracy, social justice. After implenting this thing, proper reservation for women would have been the next thing. There were protests all around the institute of national interests. Those who always got the chance, for being rich, upper caste and socially powerful tried to reason out that this rule of giving power to poor lower caste subaltern will divide the country more , and caste system should be thought as thing of past which has no effect whatsoever in current India. They made a popular forum called youth for equality, which arranged hunger strike, follwoed by a mass arerst of students. No student died , and moreover there were no cases of injuries either. Hunger strike was a realy one so that no one stays hungry for a long time.
My cousin : " they dont have brains, it is clear form how they perform in all these places. do i have to give my place to an adivasi now."
Tanmay : " tora janish na maal gulo koto gambat, ens-a boshe shobkichui mone hoy onyorokom. " ( you guys dont know how stupid they are, everything looks different when you are sitting here in ens )"
my aunty : " age to gramer jonyo communist party uthe pore legechilo, tai grame grame maddhomiker first boy , ekhon rickshaw wala, dhangor eder jonyo-o lege porlo." ( because of communist party all the villages were doing well in the boards, now even these lower caste people will do well".
another cousin : " good genes ......"
my friend : " i deserve my place, and i cant leave my place for some obc ."
barkha dutt (the dumb intellectual) : "what's the point of all these reservations if there aren't enough qualified people to make use of them?"
Books of ambedkar being burned by the best students of the best medical institute of india AIIMS.
http://shivamvij.com/2006/10/04/books-are-not-for-burning/
Government didn't back up. And it was shame the way they didn't tackle this problem strongly. when a tribal protest by joining Maoist movement, he is termed as terrorist and executed, and when a rich kid of delhi or bloody metro city protests it becomes breaking news, chetan bhagat ( even dan brown writes better than him) asks everyone to attract the television as much as possible. Still no voice from the subaltern.


Facts :
"Sujee Teppal, an adivasi student who topped the Andhra Pradesh common entrance test (EAMCET) for engineering in her category, was keen on a BTech from IIT. At IIT-M, she was asked to take the Preparatory Course route. At the end of it, she was failed in one subject, Physics. (Her Class-XII Maths-Physics-Chemistry average was 94 per cent; she had a centum in Class XI Physics.) After the issue was taken up by the Periyar Dravidar Kazhagam, and the subsequent coverage in the local press - which got interested, typically, after Sujee attempted suicide - and following a directive from the National Commission for Scheduled Castes and Scheduled Tribes (dated 8 July 2000), the IIT management tried to cover its tracks, conducted another test for Sujee and other dalits-adivasis who were failed along with her, and cleared some of them for BTech. A much-harassed Sujee has now been assured of direct admission into MTech (without having to clear GATE) by the management. First, you are humiliated; then your silence is bought. Several dalit employees have been similarly gagged. Says an employee denied promotions and increments for his outspoken views, 'The management plays one dalit against another, sometimes showering petty favours on one group, manipulating resistance.' "- this is a news taken from the newspaper , the originality of which is not the responsibility of the author. The author was in Chennai during this incidence, and vividly remembers all those news reports. One of the authors friend was in IITM that time, he was in the preparatory course and he was visibly depressed all the time since he had to face the taunts of the general category students and profs. He had a nickname, mandal commission.
Even if the above news is fabricated to any extent, doesn't mean that nothing comparable to that happens in IIT's. The author is really sorry to find out that it has hurt the victim of this incident, and want to assure her that it is anger not the urge for popularuty made the author write this article. The author understands the sentiment related to it and wants to ask the reader to verify the news after reading.

2. IIT, AIIMS , JU, Shibpur, never produced anyone of highest intellect and wisdom. They might have produced CEO's, but in other part of the world CEO's are the best profession for the college drop outs. In terms or research , IIT's like all the other institutes of national importance fails badly. Then why we support them financially. do we think about India whne we do that ? Is Indians are meant to debug programs or becomnig yes sir type corporate after learning in all these iits and iims ? why dont we ask this simple questions to all these engineers and doctors , what is their contribution to this country or to this world , other than mediocricity and cheap labour offered to the west ? If there is no west to take care of their mediocricity what will happen to them ?

3.

Genderwise, the IITs fare even worse. Sandipan Dep, deputy editor with Outlook: 'What was my IIT education all about? It was about IITians: 400 academically exceptional boys (and 12 girls) on a campus...' The girls come in parenthesis. It's all about boys. Despite all those headlines and reports we have seen for years about girls doing better than boys in Class X, Class XII and other state and central board school exams, it is (mostly caste hindu) boys who have enough 'merit' to enter the IITs. And the few girls who make it must prove themselves male enough. 'From one coast to another, women engineering students have shared their relief on being accepted by the men in engineering as one of the guys' (Sally Hacker 1989, 49).

Some letters responding to the Outlook feature raised the issue of nonrepresentation of women. 'I was horrified to see not a woman mentioned in your entire story. Forget the alumni, even the on-campus photos didn't feature any women. Is your outlook so biased?' Another asked, 'Are all IITians men?' (Outlook 12 June, 2000). According to the news report cited earlier with reference to IIT-Mumbai, '(T)he situation for women students remains dismal, with less than 200 among the almost 3,000 students in the bachelor's and master's programmes. For Dalit girls, things are even more bleak. The first Dalit girls, numbering all of three, were admitted in 1997. Since then, their number has increased by one every year' (Indian Express, Mumbai, 12 June 2000).

One of the few dalit girls doing BTech in Mumbai is says, 'If you are in a coveted department like Computer Science and Engineering, the guys wonder aloud how a woman could get through and if they know you are a cata student, there is an audible 'ohh' which seems to answer their question.' ('Cata student' is caste-hindu IIT lingo for those who make it using affirmative action. In IITs, as in other campuses in our country, dalits tend to be allotted only dalit room-mates; dalits also do not figure in IITs' famed alumni associations.)

4 .

In Australia, the settler whites are at least saying 'sorry' to the 'stolen generation'. And an aborigine wins a gold medal in Olympics. In the US, there is a public discourse against racism, though discrimination continues. But 'hindu' India, despite putting in place theoretical guarantees in the constitution, continues to treat its aboriginals most shabbily, and no questions are asked. In the name of 'merit'; in the name of democracy.

Last Cut :

Place : IIT Powai, Chicago , 2008, November

Barkha Dutt cheeirng Obamas victory, moreover she said it is the most important thing happened in the history of our time.

Two indian youth attempts suicide in IIT powai.

http://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/Cities/2_Dalits_in_suicide_bid_at_Powai_IIT/articleshow/3682878.cms

Adarsh phashan jahan naaron mein

aur chor bharey darbaron mein

Vahan maut akhlaq ki hai ik khabar baasi

jinhe naaz hai hind par vo kahan hain

jinhe naaz hai vo kahan hain.

blogging just for the sake of it

Jibananda Das once said : " whoever writes poem is not a poet , few of them are ". Then indian government said padhna likhna sikho. Everyday in many indian homes many children gets the hard lesson from their parents : What is the point of studying, readin writing. I, the priviledged here not only know how to write , but have many options of making my voice heard, and too some extent I have managed grow my own voice. Pen is mightier than sword, but whenver sword is taken by someone , someone has to die, there has to be blood. So when you have a sword in your hand you are supposed take sides and fix whom to kill, whose blood you want to take. Isn't it true for pen too. When you have pen, you have to take sides, since there will be speculation.

I had holiday, a strange one. It was like a long feverish state . Fever is the best time for me, since that is the time when i loose control over reality. There are lots of situations when actually i had dreams but couldn't make out whether they are real or not. I guess it is the rush of hot blood flowing always towards brain that gives these strong dreams, and as Dostoevsky clearly proved to me last summer that these dreams of fever are the true colros of what we want we need and our shortcomings.

How many original ideas i have came across in my life, how many original ideas were ever conceived by human beings. Personally , I think there are very few ideas which are not at all trivial. And in the list of my supreme inventor I have
Gautam Buddha
Mahatma Gandhi
J krishnamurti
Riemann
Manmohan Singh
How often these invenetors turned out to be really invidualistic is a natural consequence of the necessity of invention. But one news this week made me think twice about the necessity of individualism . There is a school in Bankura district in westbengal , mostly for the tribal students , which made me wonder whether good connectivity of all sorts of knowledge is more important than a fresh but experienced mind. They wanted to increase the particiaption of students in the school., they wanted to make the student aware of hygene, they wanted to reduce the number of school drop outs . What they did is they started a parliament in the school, with council of ministers , elected by the students, elected from the students. There are bell ministers whose duty is too check whether all the school bells are ringing according to the time, there is a prayer song minister, then dress minister, food minister who checks the mid day meal thing. All the ministers are chosen by the students and also there is pint system based on their overall performance in the school. The highest point goes to honesty. I wont be surprised in next 30 -40 years if we see the end of gandhi dynasty and we find our first tribal prime minister from one of these great Indians.

open letter

I was going through many words few minutes back, just a good past time. Words which are so powerful for me tonight that i get it first whenever i start thinking about words. The phrase which came in my mind is open letter. Open letters are supposed be very open, like the way sky is open . The thing about open or closed is really interesting. Open belonged to those kind of concepts even whose opposite can not be concretely defined. Both are related to each other. Anyway i have written few not so opne letters and one opne letter in my life, and they are so open that it wont come in opne air in their life .
Or may be that album of anjun dutta "priyo bondhu " , where there were so many open letters, between two completely disconnected people living far away from each other. Though i find the album very unsmart now but that was the first gift I bought for someone, and it will remain as the biggest mistake of my life.
I never saw any open letter in my life, but somehow i used to think that open letters are something like articles written in personal diary , but now as i know quite a lot about different things know open letters are sort of last thing we want to say about some topic and then completely stop. It is like the last thing you want to say in our break up day meeting , those harsh may be extra emotional words knowing that probably we will never face each other. i heard about the break up stories from my friends and i think i know more about break up dates than any one in this world. My friends are really good story tellers.

And when every bird finds their home back,
no river returns,
some of them dies on the way , never meeting anyone.
they are no more river
just carrying tears of millenium.

Chandrayan

At last, the long lasting dream of mine will be true. India, after wednesday successful moon venture, will join the greatest feat of modern science. I was thrilled, like any other toddler, about space, as it is the easiest thing to imagine even though you are poor, something like playing football. When you are alone and small you look up and try to make yourself feel more alone and humble and that gives statbility and good night sleep. I used think about space crafts and read all the information related to space technology in our bengali dailies. It was my dream to become the first man to reach sun and then thanking the people in sun for giving such a nice dreamy sunshine during the winter afternoons. But soon it was realised by these dreamy eyes that sun is not reacheble by human beings and mars is infected by the american machinery. So I started dreaming about being in Moon. I made lots of drawing of my space craft that will take me to moon, I heard there no mosquitos in moon, which made it the best place for me. After all these long years atlast ,we, the most potent and yet the most disgusting race called Indians will start our journey to set our foot in moon. Apart from the economic and scientific benefits of this mission, it will have a great impact on the mind of average newspaper readin indians. It will be a real confidence booster for billions. Though our subaltern frineds , the chinese, have already launched their mission, but a democratic country like india it wont be any less important, as we will be the second democratic country to make our presence felt on moon. Scientifically India always had a strong position in this world, specially post colonial science. There were no thoughts ever thought my human beings which never rattled any indian mind . Every thing had place here, so was science in its most original form, that is yukti or logic. Infact post world war India had the largest number of trained scientist after america and russia, though our education system was the poorest. And like everything scinece also found a new and totally indian expression altogether. The state of the art technology used in ISRO is probably nothing comapred to NASA but still it is totally Indian , cheap and works as efficiently as anything created by NASA. India is the place of experiment and the greatest expreiments about human beings and its tendencies. I always believed that variation is the soul of creativity and india offers it in abundance. But then what keeps us backwards, it is simply the lack of confidence. Lack of confidence syndrom is everywhere in this wrold, that is why germans call themselves germans so that they can fight together or bully together, same is true for any man of proud nation or religion or sect or race. But Indian, being exploited by the burgoise of different race for a long time, lacks it totally. I still remain close to my observation that individualism is only practised properly in India and African nations , but then those who practise is always outnumbered by those who are not sure about themselves . Those people always take India backwards. During these Chadrayan phase, there was another news of scrapping the gay sex law. This law was started by the asshole phirangis in india and they did not forget to attach religious sentiments with it, forgetting the fact that even in ancient india gay sex was not forbidden, not even in the time of war when reproduction was more importantly associated with sexuality than pleasure-stability and love. The post colonial India being so pseudo secular and pseudo modern that it never tried to scrap this law , and even supported the western propaganda that gay sex causes aids more than anything. Statictics is the biggest lie in this world, but indian governments never ever tried to even take the help of statistics. But now how can you stop a nation full of strong people with only one thing called freedom in mind. Vikram Seth wrote an open letter to many leading dailies about this law and the effect of it. And now high court has told Indian Government to show scientific facts or scrap this law. Mister health minister , being a very responsible person is always in favour with scrapping this law, and all the human beings hope that this law will be scrapped very soon. Lets pray for those guys and girls who loved someone from the same sex and either ended their life or always struggled againts this faulty system. Lets hope that very soon we will see gay and lesbian lovers like all their freudian counterparts roaming around the city, holding hands kissing each other. Even freudian love doesn't know any discrmination and it is high time that we not only accept this truth but realise it. There is only one sort of crime, and that is theft and all the other crimes are variations of it. We can not steal the right of anyones sexual selection, and even if our dumb god gets angry with it we have to play according to the rule we have set. Discrmination has to be ended, any sort of discrmination.